The Sunday Stories requires a Sunday round up, surely? If only my weeks were filled with adventure and witty anecdotes. Alas, you’ll have to read about my varying moods and profound, pensive thoughts.
I woke up on Saturday morning early, fed the dog and wandered back to bed for an hour or so where I pressed on with my book, which is lovely by the way and providing ample inspiration for my life. I stayed cosy, tucked under bed sheets that need changing for a little while longer before hoofing it out the door to walk the dog. I told my friend that I wasn’t sure if my lack of motivation was down to a low mood, or the knowledge of endless time. It could be both for all I know but either thought unsettles me nevertheless.
My weekend unfolded in two different ways; Saturday was full of anger and impatience. Perhaps a combination of cabin fever and hormones, perhaps a result of anxiety but either way it was a write-off and not worth indulging in. I regret it. Sunday, however, was almost perfect.
Today I sat in the garden with my parents, I wrote about a dream day at sea, I read my book, I messaged my friends and I enjoyed good food. I felt grateful to have a garden and I tried my best not to think about the uncertainty of life as we know it.
I don’t know about you but isolation and the constant anxiety of what venturing out in public could bring makes me acutely aware of the moments that are peaceful and happy. Sometimes I long for exciting experiences, adventures to write about and moments to remember and then sometimes I just want to know that my family are safe and that I am comfortable – it makes for less interesting blog posts but it soothes the butterflies in my chest to no end and seeing as I have almost 2 regular readers of my blog and approximately 1000 butterflies taking up residence in my chest, I think I’ll opt for peace. Today was peace.
Tonight i’ll envision the karma that will greet all those who bathed in the glory of today’s weather in public parks and spaces. Like most, I only believe in karma when it promises to smite my enemies, and ignorant fools are always my enemies.